Kingy Cup and School Memorial Plaque

Today Kobe and I were invited to attend the Kings Meadows High School assembly to see a new memorial plaque for Aaron that had been placed on the wall in the gym, and also to present the 'Kingy Cup' to the grade nine class that won it this term.   The funniest thing was the girls who were treating Kobe like he was a rock star. They kept coming up giggling, saying 'oh he's soooo cute!' and he would wave and say  'hi' and they would giggle again.

I was looking forward to going along, but I don't think I realised how emotional I would feel to be there.  The last time I was at the school for something like that was for Aaron's memorial service.  I just felt so sad that Aaron wasn't at school where he really loved to be, and was even sad that the grade sevens never got to meet him. 

At the end of the assembly two students got up to tell the school that a plaque had been put up, which is why Kobe and I were attending the assembly that day.  This is what they said:

"Mr King was a legend of Kings Meadows High School and he has been sadly missed. This year and all of the years to come will not be the same without him. But he will be glad to know that everything he taught us, is helping us to cope and grow as students and people.

We would like to thank Mr King’s wife, Lisa and son, Kobe for being with us today to acknowledge just how important Kingy was to all of us. 

The main reason we are up here today is to make everyone aware that a memorial plaque has been placed on the back wall below the scoreboard, to honour the contribution Kingy made to Kings Meadows High School.  This spot was chosen because most of us would remember him for his love of sports. 

I’m sure Kingy would’ve loved us to have named the gym after him but unfortunately the naming rights have already been taken by L.A. Bonser. 

We hope that every time you see the plaque on the wall you are able to think of a great memory that you have of Mr King and are able to smile, because that is what he would’ve wanted".

 

Aaron would have been the grade nine Grade Leader this year, so they decided to have a 'Kingy Cup' in memory of him, where each grade nine class were able to compete in different challenges throughout the term.  The cup looked beautiful and I'm sure Aaron would've been very impressed with it, as it looked almost like the AFL Premiership Cup - just a smaller version :)

The Kingy Cup will be awarded to a class at the end of each term and at the end of the year, until the grade nines finish school next year.   Today it hit me that in two and a half more years none of the students at Kings Meadows High will even know Aaron anymore, and it made me so sad.

 

After the whole school assembly the grade nines stayed back so that Kobe and I could present the cup to the winning class.  This term Kobe and I awarded the Kingy Cup to 9A. 

It was nice to be a part of it, but very sad at the same time.  Oh how I wish Aaron was still there cracking jokes, stirring the kids, talking up Hawthorn and continuing to love his job as a teacher.

Memorial Plaques

After two months of waiting and a lot of money (thank you again to all of those who donated money to us and made it possible to get exactly what we wanted) Aaron and Noah's grave markers are in the house instead of at the head of their graves at the cemetery.

Instead of markers they both now have beautiful plaques as they were finally placed today, as well as Noah's headstone.   Kobe and I went up to see them this morning just after they had been placed, and then all of us went up after I picked up Harri from school (Jalen has been home sick for a few days).

We actually had a lovely offer from someone who said their family had a business of making plaques and they wanted to make both of them for us for no cost.  Unfortunately they weren't able to do the pictures how I wanted them (with the picture being etched into the plaque) so we had to go through a company called Arrow. 

One night while Aaron and I had some time alone  after Noah passed away, we walked around the cemetery for about an hour just looking at other people's plaques.  We came across a lovely plaque which had the pictures etched in and we both straight away knew that was how we wanted Noah's to be.  We wanted to get Noah's plaque done but didn't really have the money to do it straight away, so we had been putting it off.  Now I'm so glad that we didn't do it straight away as the wording that I chose changed after Aaron died too.  I'm also so glad that we both chose what kind we wanted together, because it was stressful enough having to do it myself.

It was surreal sitting in the office at the cemetery, going through the photos and wording that I wanted  on the plaques knowing that I was organising one for Noah and Aaron.  I had talked it over with the boys and let them help me decide what to put on each one.  While we were at the cemetery one day Harri spotted a Collingwood logo on another plaque. He straight away said 'Dad is having that, but it's going to be Hawthorn!'.  I laughed at the time and didn't think I would do it, but after thinking about it I realised that Aaron would actually love it and it meant a lot to Harri to have it on there, so we went with it.

We are really happy with how they both look.  It's nice to have them there, but also strange at the same time to see them at the head of their graves.

Even though Noah's grave is now grassed it has unfortunately sunken with all the rain.  Supposedly it is going to be fixed again soon, but I guess that means that we may have to put up with having dirt a bit longer.

Thank goodness for Kobe who always keeps the mood light.  He saw me taking photos with my phone and decided to pull out some dance moves for me.

Harri didn't like that Kobe was getting some attention, so he thought he'd join in.  Kobe then decided to put his arm around him for a nice brotherly photo, but Harri didn't want that and got cranky with him and told him to go away.   This was the result! Two sulky, cranky boys!

This is how things usually end up at the cemetery - not because they are sad about Aaron and Noah, but because they are boys and both of them are so stubborn and head strong and want their own way.  Harri cracked up tonight when he saw the photo.  It looks totally like it could be set up, but unfortunately it's just the way the boys are :) I'm sure Aaron and Noah were probably laughing at them and me telling them off as we were walking back to the car.

It is nice to finally have the plaques at their graves, but it's also another thing that is very bitter sweet as it's something you never ever wish you had to organise for your son or husband.

Letter from Harri

Harri surprises me every day with the things he says and does since Aaron passed away.  Those who know Harri, know that he's not usually the one to be so kind and sensitive.  It's not that he's insensitve but Jalen is often the one who makes a bigger effort to help around the house, or to let you know how he is feeling.

This is a letter that Harri wrote to me last night.

Four Months Without You

Hi Honey,
It's hard to believe that we haven't seen you for four months. It's hard to believe that you are really gone and are never coming back. We miss you so much. The days are so long without you.  At night I just go to bed early because there is nothing else to do, so I try to sleep so I don't miss you so much.

The boys are doing okay. Harri is actually pretty good. He seems quite happy and is enjoying school and footy. He keeps saying that Friday nights aren't the same without you watching Friday Night Footy with him.

Jay is slowly getting there, but is so sad and just misses you so much. He's not the same Jay we used to know. There is a glimmer of it every now and then, but most of the time he just looks pale and sad.

Kobe is Kobe and is keeping everyone laughing. He's turned very naughty but he's lucky he's cute as it means he gets away with it most of the time.  He misses you a lot, but is happy most of the time and just enjoying life, like he always does.

We were going to release some balloons to you and Noah today but stupid me in my brain fog at the moment, threw out the wrong helium tank.   Instead of throwing out the empty one, I obviously threw out the brand new one that I bought! I could've kicked myself when I went to fill up some balloons today and there was no helium left and I realised what I had done.

Instead we picked some of the roses that you planted in the garden for Noah today and took them up to your grave.  It's still hard to believe that your body is down there.

You and Noah are what I think about all day - even if I am busy doing other things.  I wonder whether you are thinking about us all the time too, or whether you are too busy?  The boys all wrote a letter to you today and took it up to your grave.  Kobe said you couldn't read it 'cause he died', but I told him that I bet you could read it anyway.  

Kobe told me what to write and then wanted to draw his hand for you.  As you can see he's getting bigger and bigger every day.

As you can see Harri is pretty happy.  He misses you a lot, but is doing well.  He drew a picture for you of Jesus, with you and Noah in Heaven.

Dear Dad,
I really really miss you i wish you were still here life is 1000 time worse and harder when you are not around. :( I miss your jokes and how we mucked around at night. Why did you have to go? why can't you come back? I would do anything to see you again! School is terrible.  I can't get my work done. I had my comedy festivel last week that was so much fun. My YouTube channel is going well. Dad please come back with Noah i miss you very much.

Love your favourite son Jalen :(

We also went to visit Noah's grave today before heading out to Westbury so I could do a photo shoot.  The boys had lots of fun at Simon and Simone's house and didn't want to leave.  We then had tea with Pip and Ben. It was a nice day, even though it was the 26th.

I wish I understood why this is all happening. I wish I could change it. I wish you didn't have to be with Noah right now. I wish so many things, but the things I wish for the most can't happen.  Instead I just hope that the boys and I can get through this okay.

Please give Noah a big hug from me and tell him how much I love and miss him too. I wish I could see those big brown eyes and chubby cheeks and could just give him a big cuddle.
I love you and miss you so much.
Love,
Lisa
xoxoxox

My Helper

Since Aaron passed away I've realised how much he did around the house. I always knew how lucky I was as he was always so hands on with the boys, and also with helping me, but after he passed away I was tearing my hair out realising how much I now had to do on my own. The first couple of months I was very stressed wondering how I was going to keep up with everything, but since then I have got into a pretty good routine where I feel like I'm on top of the house work as well as everything thing else.

I've had a few talks to the boys about helping me out more around the house, and not expecting me to do everything and Harri has been a champion in really trying to help out.   The first month after Aaron died were very stressful.  The boys would often see me in tears each morning as I made their school lunches, got Kobe ready and tried to get the house clean before work, as I was just so tired from everything plus in shock with what had happened,.  Harri then started to get up really early before school to help me get things ready.

I loved that he wanted to help, but I was worried that he wasn't getting enough sleep as he wasn't sleeping well and getting up way too early, so I told him it was okay to sleep in longer and all I wanted him to do were his usual jobs - get dressed for school, pack his bag, make the bed etc.

In the last few weeks he has really been making an effort again to help out.  The other night he said 'I'm going to clean the whole kitchen for you Mum!' and off he went.

Harri is not the one I expected at all to make such a big effort to help out.  He's so proud of himself and happy when he's doing it too. I'm sure Aaron would be proud of him for jumping in and helping me out more too.

Laugher is the Best Medicine

It's so nice that Jalen is doing something that he enjoys so much still, and has something to look forward to during the week. He's been so upset since Aaron died, so it has been nice having him jump in the car after drama, excited to tell me about all the fun things they have been doing.

Last Saturday was their end of term show, and it was a comedy show.  Jalen was one of the MCs for the night and did a great job.  

They had been doing a lot of theatre sport type games to get prepared for it and the skits were all very funny.  Jalen was in a group skit which was a 'fairy tale three ways'.  They had to perform Jack and the Beanstalk three different ways including how Play School would do it. Jalen was the cow and cracked me up when he was acting like it was Play School going 'cows say 'moooo!' 'M'. 'O'.'O'.


Each of the kids had to write their own skit and perform it, and Jay decided to make his about accepting an academy award.  The video quality isn't great but I'm putting it up as it's a family memory that I know Jay will love looking back on in years to come.

The School Bell

I've stopped going to the cemetery so much now that the weather has cooled off.  I don't feel like it's a place that makes me feel closer to Aaron and Noah, as I feel close to them at home,  but I still like to visit their graves a couple of times a week at least.  It's nice not to have to stress so much about whether Noah's grass is dying because it's not getting enough water.

 If the boys are with me the visit is often short as I get sick of breaking up the arguments about who got to water the grass or Aaron's plants the most. I'm sure Aaron and Noah are probably having a laugh as they watch me break up the fights, but while the boys are fighting it isn't much fun.

When I'm on my own (which is very rare) it's usually a longer visit where I usually sit at Aaron's grave first, and then go over to Noah's and then often back to Aaron's.   I'm usually okay when I go up there and just sit looking at their graves, not really believing that their bodies are down there.  Sometimes I say something to Aaron like 'why!?' or 'I love you' or 'how am I going to do it!?' but if I talk more than that I feel like a total nutcase, so I just think think things instead and hope they are somehow hearing me.


I don't usually cry at the cemetery, but there's been a couple of times when I just couldn't hold back the tears.  There have been a few times where I have been sitting at Aaron's grave around lunch time.  The cemetery happens to be just across the road from Kings Meadows High School, where Aaron taught.  It's the strangest feeling sitting at his grave, and hearing the school bell,  knowing that the kids are either just about to go out to lunch or back into class.


I just wish he was across the road at school, racing around doing jobs at lunch time before he had to head back into class.  It was often the time of day when we would ring or text each other as I knew he wouldn't be in class and we would catch up on things (even though we had only seen each other a few hours before) or remind each other about something that was happening after school.   It's so strange to hear the school bell and know that instead of being over there, Aaron's body is under the ground.